wht sh0uld i d0.....?

Assalammualikum dunia.......
0k t0pik kte pd ari nie...ttg tabiat buruk gua....

dlu gua ade 1 diari nie...gua gne buku biase jer [60pg].....
gua gne buku cm2 spya 0rg len x sibuk nk bca diari 0rg len...mnyibuk jer,x sdr dri nk bca rahsiah 0wg len....b0d0h!...

s0ri agk ikut prasaan td....

0k,since gua tadika agi gua da ade diari sndri.....
gua bli buku tnpa pengetahuan mak gua........
evrytime mak check beg gua,mak x prasankn p0n buku diari gua 2.........
0wg tua ktakn.....
dlm buku 2,gua ctt sume ape yg brlaku pd ari2 yg gua tlh lalui.........
buku 2 agk bhya ckit ar...c0z dlm buku 2 ade rahsiah sume 0rg kt skeliling gua..
rahsiah kecik / besar,sume gua sumbat kt dlm buku.......

dr um0 gua 6thn smpai um0 gua 17thn gua hny brgntunug pd buku...
24h0urs,gua brkepit ngn buku diari gua...
gua slalu brsndrian,mse kt sk0la mhu p0n kt umah...
kt sk0la evn gua ade kwn gua x rpt,kt umah gua slalu trperuk kt dlm blik...
mak naik trtekan tgk klakuan gua.....
pgi,gua gi sk0la..balik tghri,mkn then msuk blik..
ps2 ptg,kemas2 umah then msuk blik agi...

stp bln gua sllu bli buku tulis bru...
pephm jer ar......da klu stp ari isi,stp mse isi....abih ar buku...
stp buku gua yg da abis gua simpn c0z ga ske bca blik sume yg gua da tulis stp ari.....

gua tulis psl prsaan gua,pndpt,mcm2 agi ar.........
n'.......
da trlalu slse ngn kehadiran buku 2,yg stp ari mnemani gua slme 11thn...
gua cba utk mlpsknnye dr idup gua.....gua bkr sume buku2 2 kt blkng umah gua kt shah alam.....
gua trlalu takut nk lpskn buku 2....
gua sdr cpt / lmbt,gua hrus lpskn bukuk 2 gk......lg p0n mse 2 gua tggl sbln agi nk priksa SPM...
n' gua sdr sdh msenye gua bljr idup brdikari....idup sndri......

akhirnye,4 1st time in my life....
n0 mre b00k 2 fill evryday,mmg gua mngaku 1st day gua agk trtekan gk ar...
tp,gua brjaya atasi sume ketakutan gua n did it...alam prkrjaan mngajar gua utk lpskn jer ape yg trbuku d ati...tau jer la keje lu 0rg msti cpt stress...

i can survive 0nly 4 1 years with0ut it......
n' n0w...i can h0ld myself any l0nger....
i need tht b00k again........then i create 1 b00k...
sme as b4...