Juz cut my breath away...

Assalammualaikum sume...
Cuant0s evryb0dy?...

Da lme btl wa x updte bl0g wa..
wndu rsenyer....
wa de byk cite yg wa nk k0ngsi me lu sume...

Life is weird,rite?..
but in de sme tme its t0tally unique...
thr's s0 much i wnt 2 t0ld u guys..
but i dun hve much tme..
s0 im g0nna tell ya few 0f it...

im w0rkng as clerk in Putatan,Sabah..
thr's ws a car dealer c0mpny,Sinar Berjaya car dealer...
the sh0p is still new in t0wn...
n i've been w0rkng thr 4 2 m0nths..
2day is my last day...
i wnt 2 quit but my b0ss alrdy fired me...
u guys wnna n0e why...
i'll tell ya...

Last nite 0n 7th n0vmbr '09...
i ws driving my c0mpny's car..
its ws s0 late..
im driving int0 the nearest places 2 checkng 0n sumthing..
actually,im l00kng 4 a new r00m 4 rent...
my life ws juz a real mess this tme..
but guess wht?...
im feeln' gud hehe...

S0 while im drving i finlly f0und sumthng vry nice..
i finlly f0und r00m...
s0 i park the car..
while im c0py the 0wnr's nmbr..
sumthng ws bl0w..
its s0 damn shit..
whn i turn back,u guys wll n0t blieve in this...
thr's ws an0thr car hit my CAR!!!...[actually my c0mpny's car..]

I c0uldnt d0 n0thng...
i ws s0 sh0cked..
wh0 w0uldnt be sh0cked 2 tht,rite?...
i ws feeln' like "000h! MY G0D!!!!!!!"...

i alm0st l0sing my mind...
i dun n0e wht 2 d0...
wish i cn turn back the tme..
i w0nt br0ught tht car 0ut...

N ths m0rnng i called my b0ss ask him 2 cme...
i dun tell him b0ut the car ws hit by an0thr car...
ujuz ask him 2 cme ovr..
whn he sw the car..
he ws like a b0mb..
B00000000mmmmmmmm!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!..........
i juz let him mad at me...
s0,aftr thn i t0ld him evrythng...

s0 thts h0w i g0t fired..
nice st0ry huh?!..
hehehehehe....
i c0uldnt st0p myself fr0m laughing whn i ws 0ut fr0m thr...
its juz s0 damn funny...
n n0w hre i am...
i hve n0 r00m,n0 j0b in the mddle 0f dr0p ecn0my...
"h0w cn i live with0ut u" hehehehe...
sum 0f my fwenzz said tht im crzy..
im juz saying..
"Hey! im an 0rdinary prs0n"...
wht cn i d0..[actually i cn d0 bttr thn tht,rite huh?!..."]

the ending...
0k..
I've g0t 2 g0 n0w..
see ya later...
ch0w sinchi..
Assalammualaikum...

[All ws a liar..]

Tri0 kluarga wa...
3 ank jntn yg k0rg suma tgk ne..
adalah ank2 jati kluarga wa...
dr tpi kiri,M0hd Tajudin@Abg..
tgh,M0hd Taufik@B0ngsu..
sr tpi kanan,M0hd Taswim@Mamat..

0k skg wa cite kn lak karakter ketiga3 tri0 ne..
Abg,dy ne jnis sbr,rjin,x pdulikn skeliling..
Mamat,jnis temper,kuat,rajin,mesra alam..
Taufik yg b0ngsu,dy ne jnis cm 0rg tua,cm ustaz p0n ade,miang,nakal tp pndai...

Adik2 wa adalah prmata ati wa...
wa msh ingt bla 1st di0rg buka mta,..
1st tme di0rg dpt brjln...
wa adalah 0rg prtama yg ajar di0rg,jga di0rg...
sumenye wa yg wt...
mse kcik dlu mmg la sume c0mel ble da bsr ne...
nk rpt ngn di0rg p0n ssh...

bdk2 la ktakn..
tp wa sygkn di0rg...

Pull The Curtain

Where'd i g0 wr0ng?...
Pull the curtain,..Begin...
Paranoia's wearing thin n0w...
It's wearing thin n0w...

Where'd i g0 wr0ng?...
Cl0se my eyes,..Realized..
I've bec0me the victimized n0w..
Desensitized n0w..

The 0ne and 0nly day has c0me..
I pay f0r all the bad things i've d0ne..

Where'd i g0 wr0ng?...
S0meting's wr0ng because i..
find the glam0ur in the darkside,...
in the darkside...

Where'd i g0 wr0ng?...
Cheap regrets,can't f0rget...
Falling victim t0 the debts still...
Unpaid in my mind..

The 0ne and the 0nly day has c0me..
I pay f0r all the bad things i've d0ne..

It's g0nna take me..
You d0n't kn0w tragedy..
I've been t0 hell and back..
Again t0 tell and,..
Cl0se my eyes and,..
Lay me d0wn t0 sleep...
I fear the w0rst my beating...
Heart ticks t0 expl0de...
And my time is up s0...

Why can't i just sleep?....

Living dead awake...
The h0rr0r sh0w begins..
S0 pull the curtain 0ver me..
Bring 0n the panic..
The unc0ntr0lled and manic...
It's a free-f0r-all kill them all...
Every last 0ne 0f them..
I d0n't cara at all...
Suff0cate the dreams in my mind...
Well i can't st0 believing...
Dr0wn the th0ughts that have me...
C0nfined...
This life is hard t0 begin...
Gutter dreams as black as the night...
N0 0ne t0ld me empathy's a lie...
L0st in paran0ia....

Sum41...

Hari Raya yg Mulia...

Assalammualaikum Dunia...

1st 0f all..
"SELAMAT HARI RAYA,...
MINAL AIDIL WALFA'IZIN...
MINTA MAAF ZAHIR & BATIN PADA SEMUA MUSLIMIN &
MUSLIMAD"......."

Raya kli ne xde byk beza dr rya2 sbl0m ne...
sume sme jer...
wa b0wink nk jln2..
wa d0k umah..
b0wink d0k..
wa jln g cc..
ps dr cc..
wa blk n wa td0..
xde k0j0 len nk d buat...
mak ngn ayah ajak blk kg ayah..
ziarah kbur arwah nenek...
tp wa t0lak..c0z malas nk jln...
g umah mkcik2 & pkcik wa,kzen2 wa...
mntk ampun,mntk maaf..
[Raya prtama]...

Sme jer..
d0k kt umah memanjang..
[Raya kdua]...

Siang wa jln g umah mmbr'z jp..
pkai kbaya itam & high heels 4 inci...
jln pny ayu...
mkn c0ntr0l..
ckp suara x dng0r..
mlm wa jmpe mmbr'z mse sk0la rndah...
kit0rg d0k bantai mnum smpai fajar mnyinsing...
[Raya ktiga]....

Sume sme jer..
b0wink..
b0wink..
xde wtpe..
xde wtpe...
[Raya 4,5,6,7,8]...

i2 la citer ari raya 2009 wa...
ch0w sinchi...

Ape la citer diriku ini...

Assalammualaiku Dunia...

Ari ne gua xtau nk ckp pe...
nk bg nasihat diri gua sndiri p0n x trurus he3...
cmne la gua nk ckp "Hi Hi n Bye Bye"...
he3...

gua ch0w lu..

Ch0w sinchi...

Tatatititutut daa daaa...

Assalammualaikum...

Selamat Menyambut Bulan Ramadhan Al-Mubarak...

Assalammualaikum Dunia...

Sory da lme gua x update bl0g gua...
xde mse n xde k0mputer...
ape2 p0n smpena bulan Ramadhan yg mulia ne...
gua nk ucapka pd sume umat islam srta Duniaku yg amt sygi...

"SELAMAT MENYAMBUT BULAN RAMADHAN AL-MUBARAK"...

s0,sume gua ch0w sinchi lu..
next kte chat g...
daa..
bye...
tatatittutut...
daa daa..
Assalammualaikum....
(@_@)

K0mp0nen2 dlm K0mputer..

Assalammualaikum Dunia...

Ari nie gua nk bgtau kt lu 0rg sume kt luar sne psl k0mp0nen2 d dlm m0therb0ard [papan induk]..
1] CPU [central pr0cessing unit]
2] HEAT SINK
3] CPU C00LING FAN
4] sl0ts 4 RAM
5] FL0PPY C0NNECT0R
6] IDE C0NNECT0R
7] AGP sl0t
8] PCI sl0ts
9] ISA sl0t
10] BI0S
11] SERIAL P0rt
12] parallel p0RT
13] kEYB0ARD & M0USE C0NNECT0R

lme tul...

...
ASSALAMMU'ALAIKUM W.BT.....
Dunia...

lme tul da gua x isi ape2 kt dlm bl0g gua...
trlalu byk crite yg gua nk citer lu guys sume...
gua nk citer tp..
4 this time gua malas nk sembang2 in fact...
cg gua p0n da mrh c0z kit0rg tulis yg bkn2 jer kt dlm bl0g kit0rg...
s0 guys,next time jer la kte sembang2 k...
but sblm 2,gua ade pesanan wt kengkawan gua d luar sne...
kirim slm kt keluarga...
sm0ga sume dlm keadaan sihat walafiat....
bg yg ade mslh 2...
selesaikn cara baik...
jgn arguing...
kte leh selesaikn sumenye ngn cara baik iai2 brbincang ngn penuh sabar & tenang...
k evry1...
ch0w dudes....

C0NTINUE...

sbb 2 ar wan dtg cri gua...
mlm 2 mmg wan btl marah ngn amy...
c0z da prmainkan die & wt nenek sndiri risau...

wan tny gua ape2 yg ptt wan tau...
die mndesak gua bgtau...
then gua trs-trg ar ckp...
lps jer dgr sumenye dr gua...
kemarahan wan mmg x trtanggung g...

mlm 2 ar0und kul 11pm...
wan p0n balik...
i2 p0n nsib baik guard kit0rg yg slesaikn...
klu x..
mmg smpai pgi ar...
wan xkn blk...
...

es0knye...
amy lak dtg...
die g hijack gua...
smpaikn gua xleh nk brckp...
tp nsib baik mse 2 byk 0rg...
klu x sure2 gua da nk bedal...
gua nmpk dri mata amy btl2 amy tgh marah...
c0z gua da b0c0rkn rhsiah die kt wan...
...
n skrg gua ngn amy da jd musuh...
mmg gua agk malu gk ar...
dlu kit0rg rapat giler...
then skrg...
lalu dpn mata p0n...
mcm da x wujud...

ntah ape lak nasib kit0rg nnt...
whtever it is...
gua akn ttp doakn yg trbaik utk die...
gua psrah ngn ape yg trjadi antara gua ngn amy...
gua bknnye sngje..
but 1 thing 4 sure...
n0 m0re "WE ARE BEZFREN 4EVR" between me & her...
gua da xde mmbr nk lepak sme2...
enj0y...
skrg gua da kmbali mnjalani hidup kese0rgan...
like i always did b4 i meet her...

smpai d cni jer lah citer gua...
next time kte smbung g...
daa...
ch0w guys...
bye! bye!....
tata,titi,tutu..!
(@_@)....

Peristiwa lama berulang lagi.........

Assalammualaikum Dunia....



Ari nie gua btl2 rse penat yg amt...

gua penat dhn hidup,dunia dgn sumenye....



cmne agi gua nk buat...

stp langkah yg gua buat x prnh btl..

sllu jer slh...



slhkah sese0rg i2 klu die baik...

wajibkah sese0rg i2 jd jahat....



bile kte baik,kte d tindas...

diri ibarat x brhrga...

jd bahan b0neka...

dan...

bile kte jahat,0rg sume pndg tinggi...

snjung kte mengalahkan TUHAN...



Amy,...

"mmbr" gua btl2 mngjar gua sesua2 dlm hidup nie...

smmgnye manusia d dunia nie x blh dpercayai..



slma nie wlu p0n sume 0rg benci die...

tp gua ttp defend die...

wlu p0n gua da malas nk dgr sume citer karut die...

tp gua ttp diam & dgr penuh ksabaran...

kdg-kala,...

sikap & cara,permintaan die...

die melampui batas die sbg s0rg manusia...

but still gua sabar melayan kerenah die....

wlup0n da byk 0rg nasihatkn gua jgn rapat ngn die..
smpaikn ade yg xnk kwn ngn gua agi..
hny sbb gua rapat ngn die...
tp gua still gk fren ngn die...
wlup0n telinga gua da sakit mndgr org2 mmbebel,brckp psl kit0rg...
kdg2..
sbb nk tutup keslhan die..
gua sggp jd 0rg yg mnanggung keslhan die...
mnahan caci maki,hamun dr 0rg...
smpaikn gua hmpir2 kne buang blajar...
tp gua xprnh bgtau die...
gua biarkn jer...

but then..
slps sekian lmenye die sllu mlekat ngn gua...
akhirnye...
gua dpt lenggang sdkit kerapatan kit0rg...
i2 p0n c0z die da c0uple ngn 0rg len...
klu x smpai ble2 p0n agknye...
gua xkn dpt lps dri die wlu sesaat...

then,..
pergaulan kit0rg p0n da kureng ckit...
i2 da 0k...
selang bbrpa ari...
die wt agi hal...
kli nie gua xdpt nk defend die g...

1 ari 2...
lps jer kit0rg abih giat...
gua da ch0w dlu nk blk umah...
die msh stay kt giat ngn BF die...
then gua dtg g giat agi...
nk men badmint0n ngn mmbr len...
gua nmpk die..gua tegur cm besa ar...
lps 2 die blk skli ngn BF die...

mse 2 hjan..
s0,BF die ikut keta die...
then...
mlm lak...
ar0und kul 9:30pm..
ade lak s0rg llaki calling2 nme gua...
gua p0n jenguk ar spe lak kn llaki x sdr diri kacau gua mlm2 nie...
tgk2 wan,bezfren amy...
wan tny gua...amy ade ngn gua ke kt h0stel...
gua ckp ar xde...
then gua tny wan ape hal...
wan citer ar sumenye...
wan ckp,...
gua ade hntr msj kt nenek amy...
then gua bgtau kt nenek amy yg amy sakit tenat...
skg ade ngn gua...
nenek amy 0k jer...
tp wan x puas hati ngn msj 2...
c0z seingt wan gua mmg xde tep0n...

"SESAT........."(@_@)

Aku sdh trlalu jauh tr"SESAT"...
tp aku msh belum mahu pulang...
ke jalan KEBENARAN....

jiwa msh panas membara...
ingin mencari keser0n0kan...
d stp penjuru d Dunia ini...
tp aku jgk mahu pulang...
ingin bersama insan2 yg aku sygi....

cemburu melihat gelagat d sekelilingku...
begitu ceria, begitu bahagia...
begitu sempurna....
tp msh jua aku belum mahu pulang...

aku menyesal dgn stp langkah
yg tlh aku lalui...
namun aku gagahkan jua kaki melangkah
menjalani hidup ini...

stp kali rasa bersalah menjalar hati....
l0r0ng kegelapan jua kucari...
utk menghalang rasa i2 dr terus menguasai diriku...

aku malu dgn diri kusnediri...
stp kali aku melalui
l0r0ng kegelapan yg aku cipta
dgn kedua tapak tanganku
yg tdk prnah men0lak permintaan hatiku
yg penuh kegilaan ini...

stp kali aku melalui l0r0ng kegelapan...
yg penuh dusta & d0sa...
lantas...
wajah2 insan yg aku
sayangi & menyayangi diriku...
muncul d hadapanku...
sbg pertanda utkku...
spya aku menghentikn perbuatanku ini...

tp tetap jgk...
aku mengeraskn hatiku
utk meneruskannya....

siapa d dlm Dunia nie
yg tdk menginginkn kebahagiaan...
dpt mendekatkn diri pd yg EHSA...
menjadi kekasih-NYA...
punya keluarga bahagia...
kawan2 yg ramai lg baik...
dan semuanya AMAN DAMAI,BAHAGIA....

tp aku memutuskn...
utk terus bergelumang d0sa...
walaupun hati d himpit sengsara...

MAAFKAN AKU...
AKU MASIH BELUM BERSEDIA MENGHADAPI KENYATAAN...
aku trlalu TAKUT...

stp masa aku mem0h0n keampunan
dari-NYA...
d atas ssegala kesalahan & d0sa
yg tlh aku lakukn...
dan berharap...
kan satu hari nnt...
aku akn cepat sedar dr mimpi burukku ini...
dan bersedia menghadapi KEBENARAN ttg diriku ini...


(*_*)..........

Mcm2....

Assalammualaikum Dunia...

Kte sllu brtny s0alan...
s0alan yg sentiasa ade jwpn d dpn mata kte....
but still,kte xnk prcaya...
n until n0w we still l00king 4 de rite answer...
isn't tht silly....
he3 (@_@)...

inila kte mnusia...
xprnh puas dgn ape yg kte ade...
bknnye slh klu kte brusaha utk mndptkn ape yg kte inginkn..
if it was 4 gud...
its n0t a big deal...
but pe0ple always ch00se de wr0ng way...

gua mnginginkn keh0rmatan drpd 0rg...
but in de sme time i've hurts s0 many heart..
juz 2 fulfill my simple wish...

Smlm...
cikgu gua ade wt r0und table...
slma nie klu ade r0und table...
gua akn trs cpt2 lari kluar...
but then...
smlm...
gua ckp ar sume...
gua ckp...
gua mntk maaf kt cikgu,kwn2 sume...
sbb slma nie gua da sakitkn hati di0rg sume..
(@_@)
...........

Ape da jd nie....

Assalammualaikum Dunia..

kli gua nk citer psl ss0rg..
ss0rg yg gua minat dlm diam...

its s0 hrd 2 believe...

gua btl2 x sgka gk...
yg gua slme nie ade hati kt 0rg nie...

ckp gua knlkn die sbg "H"...

"H" nie s0rg yg sweet,baik...
cute,mcm2 agi ar...
tpkn,die nie ssh ckit..
dlu kit0rg rpt ckit ar..
da gua nie agk nakal gk ar...
tp nakal2 p0n..
gua rpt ngn sume 0rg..
gua cme nakal merayau jer...
then,gua sll stay kt kls "H"...
1st die0k ngn gua...
stay gua,b0rak2 ngn gua...

but then ade 1 ari 2...
sddnly,die xnk ckp ngn gua...
i2 gua x ksh ar...
k0t2 die bzy ker...

ari brgnti ari...
keadaan still remains de sme...
die still xnk ckp ngn gua...
then gua rse x sdp ati gua g tny die...
tp xde die snyp jer...
skit gk ati gua...
tny x brjwb...

then,gua sbr...
past agi bbrpe minggu...
still sme...
xde prubahan..
gua xnk naik "Gila" d buatnye...
brminggu gua mmendam perasaan...
ngn lyanan die kt gua..
ati gua rse skit sgt...

0k guys next gua citer agi slbihnye...
skg gua da nk grk...
sh0w...

Cmne gua nk wt nie?

Assalammualaikum Dunia...

Ari nie...
1 ari suntuk nie...
gua xde feel ar nk wt keje...
0tak gua asyik pikir psl mmbr2 gua jer...
melayang memikir...
cmne sume nie leh jd cmnie....
cmne gua nk btlkn keadaan..
gua nk sume baik spt asalnye...

mmbr gua Amy lak srh gua lpekn aje sume 2...
xde gnenye klu gua trs cmnie...
xde faedah...
tp gua x leh ar...
gua trlalu sygkn di0rg sume...
cmne lak gua leh x endah di0rg...

gua hrp2 ade jln penyelesaian utk sume nie...

Aku.....

Aku se0rang sang pencinta setia...

aku mencari cinta pada setiap wajah yang aku temui...

mengharap cinta suciku ini akan kekal abadi..

Tapi aku tidak layak menjadi se0rang kekasih buatMu..

Aku se0rang pejuang..

aku mempertahankan keadilan

mengharapkan kedamaian abadi...

Tapi aku tidak layak menjadi se0rang wira di duniaMu...

Aku hanya se0rang insan,Hamba pada TUHANku..

aku hanya se0rang anak pada kedua IBUBAPAku...

tunggak keluarga...

dan aku juga hanya se0rang sahabat..

untuk semua mahkluk TUHAN di muka Bumi terindah ini....

Aku punya hati sunyi untuk dihiasi...

Aku punya cinta suci untuk dimiliki...

dan aku juga punya kasih sayang tulus ihklas untuk dik0ngsi....

Diri ini mengharap pada diriMu..

untuk menghiasi laman syurga hatiku yang sunyi ini...

Diri ini menginginkan diriMu..

untuk memiliki cinta suciku ini...

dan..

Diri ini mahu diriMu...

bersama-sama melayari hidup ini..

dan berk0ngsi kasih sayangku yang tulus ihklas ini...

Sejujurnya,diriku ini amat menyayangi diriMu seihklasnya...

diri ini amat menyanjung tinggi dan mengagumi diriMu sesungguhnya...

Kasihku abadi untukMu....

Bengangnye gua..!!!!!!!! ARRGGHH...!!!!!!!!!

Ari nie gua btl2 bengang......
ade s0rg akak nie ar...punye memandai tul...
die srh gua brubah hny utk "KESEJAHTERAAN" sume 0rg...

"KESEJAHTERAAN" ape lg yg die nk....
gua da ckp2 da trseksa ngn mmbr die yg s0rg...
la nie nk srh gua brubah....
simpang malaikat 44...

wtpe lak gua nk brubah...
lantak gua ar...idup gua di0rg x ske,di0rg "B0LEH BLAH...!"..
ske ati jer srh gua brubah....
nie msti psl mmbr die 2....
menyampah gua....

nk srh gua brubah...
perangai gua skg nie p0n di0rg da x thn....
nk srh gua brubah cmne agi...

da...
gua xnk idup atas arahan 0rg lain...
idup gua,gua yg urus...
biar gua jd diri gua sndiri drpd idup menipu........

If im wr0ng tel me...but..

Assalammualaikum Dunia....

Ari nie gua rse sunyi sgt...
rse resah,sedih,marah p0n ade....
ngn keadaan gua skrg....
fmly gua brBatu2 jauh dr gua...
mmbr2 lak sume da mnjauhkn diri dr gua...
my life was mess...

ntah ape salah & silap gua...tetiba sume 0rg xnk ckp ngn gua...
bila gua ckp di0rg wt dergh jer...
gua mcm ckp ngn angin jer...
xde kesan lgsung...
gua ibaratkn "invisible"...

gua xtau cmne nk wt agi...
mse mkin suntuk & keadaan lak smkin teruk...

gua xnk jika sua2 ari nnt kit0rg sume brtemu lg jika d izinkn ALLAH...
kit0rg x brtegur,..xbaik ar cm2...

tp ape yg hrus gua buat...
gua bknnye 0rg yg bijakpandai....
im juz an0ther n0rmal teenage..

If i did sumthing wr0ng 2 U guys...
im s0 s0rrry i didn't mean it...
juz talk 2 me...dun treat me like i was "invisible"...
sumtime whn im s0 excited..
i became an hyperactive kid...

i willing 2 l0se my life...
than l0sing my fmly,my frenz...
U guys s0 imp0rtant 4 me....

plz guys...

Puisi untukMu...

Kutuliskan sebuah puisi untukMu...

puisi hanya untuk diriMu...

puisi bukan puisi indah...

yang mampu meruntun hatiMu...

puisi bukan puisi sempurna...

yang mampu menyentuh hatiMu...

puisi hanya tentang diriMu...

tentang diriMu dengan keistimewaanMu...

keistimewaanMu yang telah...

mengetuk pintu syurga hatiku...

yang kesunyian....

kehadiranMu memberi cahaya keindahan...

dalam kegelapan hidupku...

Ya ALLAH,Ya TUHANku....

bantu aku...

aku menginginkan Dia...

cahaya hidup yang kucari-cari dalam hidup ini...

untuk menerangkan kegelapan yang mengepung duniaku.....

aku mem0h0n padaMU,Ya ALLAH...

jangan pisahkan Dia dariku...

W0uld they understand?...

1 damn simple pr0blem..but still they can't understand...
it wasn't s0 hard...juz be my frenz...
n' i'll make U guys happy....n0t a deal but 0ffer 4 everlasting friendship...

Juz think 'b0ut it...

Wht's g0ing 0n here?...

Mse nie gua btl2 rse hepi sgt...

c0z gua dpt luang mse ngn mmbr2 kt luar kwsn GIAT...

This is 1 0f my bez m0ment wit my fwenz....

I dun n0e if they realise this 0r n0t...

but still im g0nna say this 2 mke them mre clear...2 mke them believe tht evry w0rds i've said B4, all was de truth..im n0t lying...

I DO LOVE U GUYS...

n' im s0 s0rry if i evr hurts U guys...

i didn't mean it...

( @_@ ) Muaahhhh...!!!

*

LUV U...

Why d0 i sh0uld feel guilty,she start it 1st....

Assalammulaikum Dunia.......



0k ari nie gua nk smbng citer gua yg lps........

0k guys...



smbungan citer yg lps....



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0k,citer yg die pggl gua cbe nk ng0rat die 2 l0m abih agi...

ade epis0d ke-2 agi....



0k,ps die wt statement cm2...

ptgnye kit0rg ade budaya brsih.....

gua msk kump.1....

die msk kump. ntah ape ntah.....

gua lpe ar.....



ptg,lps jer abih budaya brsih kit0rg gk ade budaya slm d stp ari trakhir sblm cti.......

then,gua p0n slm ar sume 0wg yg mne smpt.......

ps2 gua nmpk dk pnjang 2 tgh ambik beg ngn ade agi ar brg2 yg len........



ps2,gua p0n hulur ar tgn..

yg plg mnykitkn ati gua....

die da nmpk gua hullur tgn nk slm ngn die...

sb0leh2nye die g tepis tgn gua then bleh cm2 jer.....

gua xksh klu die nk pggl gua ape2 pggilan as l0ng die tau 2 adlh gua...

ye ar gua tau ade klanye kte nie leh trsasul,trpggl nme yg ntah ape ntah...

gua phm klu yg 2.......



tp yg plg mnykitkan ati gua...

gua ngn seikhlas ati nk mntk maaf atas ape2 jer kesalahan yg tlh gua lakukan yg gua lakukan tnpa ksedaran gua.....

die leh tepis then blah cm2 jer.......



ps2,mlm ahad ari 2 gua akhirnye dpt peluang utk brhdpn ngn die...

gua tny die direct...

gua xksh sme ade mse,tmptnye x sesuai...

gua ttp akn tny gk.....



gua tny die apsl die wt gua cm2...

bleh die.."tiadalah saya saja jak main2..."

ya ampun,skitnye ati gua...pns xleh nk ckp ar...

nk jer tampar mke die...

nsib gua leh thn agi.......klu x ade jwbnye kne b00king 1 lubang kubur ar utk die....

kelakuan gua p0n x kurengnye..

cre gua tny die agk kureng ajr ar ckit...


tp bkn gua sngje...mmg time 2 gua agk pns...
...

kees0kan arinye...
kit0rg sume da start msk kls..tp sblm 2 kit0rg ade penceramah dtg khas dr melaka..0wg2 PRETEK...
sbllm msk kls gua smpat jmpe dak pnjang 2..
then gua mntk maaf ngn die atas kekasaran gua mlm 2...
then gua p0n bgtau kt die ar hajat gua nk ambik die jd kkk angkat gua...
xde sbrg jwpn..die cme senyum jer...x ckp ape2 p0n...

dr pgi smpai ptg,gua tggu pny tggu jwpn dr die tp ttp gk xde ape2...
blik dr kls ptg ari 2..gua gi bl0k die ar nk jmpe kk lisa nk bg kube then dlm mse yg sme gua p0n nk jmpe die gk...
tp punah hrpn gua xdpt jmpe dak pnjang 2...
tp sblm gua blik bl0k gua mlm 2..
ade s0rg mmbr nie...die bgtau gua sumthing interesting psl dak pnjang 2..............

die bgtau kt gua,rht kul 10am td dak pnjang bgtau kt mmbr gua nie yg dak pnjang 2 tgh tggu sese0rg kt dpn pin2 bsr kt blik jahitan...
N'..yg plg mnarik minat gua...
dak pnjang 2 kte agi...die nk dgr sese0rg 2 pggl die "kakak"...
N' mmbr gua nie rse mybe dak pnjang 2 ckp psl gua k0t...
wh0 knew,rite?...mybe she was talking 'b0ut sumbdy else...
0r...she was talking 'b0ut me...
hehehehe..ser0n0knye...

Ari nie....?Ermm...lets check it 0ut...

Assalammulaikum Dunia........

Ari nie,sme cm ari2 yg sblmnye.......
"ITS STORY TIME"........

Ready guys....?!!!

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(=_=)

(>_<)

(+_+)

[-...-]

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0k...
2day...i wnt 2 talk 'b0ut 1 0f my fwen frm PGMT [pusat giatmara sabah].....
nme?..ckp ar skdr nme pggilan yg gua cptakn khas utk die...."PANJANG'....
she's a gurl....she's taking SENIOR FASHION & LADIES DRESSMAKING c0urse level 2.....
im taking COMPUTER SYSTEM TECHNICON also level 2....

gua slalu temankn die...c0z gua xnk die rse trasing d sbbkn ksh silam yg prnh mnimpa die sblm nie.....
s0,gua slalu dtg g bl0k tmpt die tggl...kit0rg d0k h0stel sme2...
tp brlainan bl0k.....

psl ksh silam yg mnimpa drinye,gua rse xyah ar citer...
gua hrp U all kt luar sne phm k.........

gua slalu temankn die,gua nk die tau yg bhwsanye die leh brgntung ngn gua klu die prlukn sbrg bantuan.......
tp die nie liat ckit...ssh nk trime bntuan 0wg len dlm idup die...
die nie jns 0wg yg ske brdikari...
she's beautiful...0wg die cerah mcm ank cina.....

nk d jdkn citer kt cni...
ade 1 ari 2...time rht ar kul 10am-10:30am...
gua g kls die..nk temankn die ar.....sbb gua tau 1st break die xkn blik h0stel...
h0stel kit0rg dkt jer...dpn gate PGMT jer...
yg len mmg slalu blik stp kli break time.....
gua p0n risau gk ar...
da die s0rg2 kt dlm 2...
nnt klu ade ape2 jd kt die spe nk tlg........
s0,gua g ar temankn die smpai abis wk2....

ps2,pelatih yg len p0n sume da nk msuk kls...
ps2 die g pggl r00mate gua..mse 2 gua msh agi kt dlm kls 2...
die g pggl,die jerit ckp kt r00mate gua yg gua cbe nk ng0rat die...
ade ker ptt.......
gua slme nie cbe nk temankn die...
tp die lak ckp psl gua cm2 kt dpn sume 0wg lak 2........
mlu si0l........

r00mate gua lak gelak ar bile die dgr....
die kta lucu.......tp gua rse mlu.....

mmg slme nie gua sdia mklum...
yg x sume 0wg kte leh tlg.....
tp.......
sbyk2 0rg yg prnh gua tlg seumur idup gua.......
nie kli prtama gua d pggl cm2.......
gua tau ar die juz grau2 jer...
tp gua mmg mlu giler mse 2.......

tp,gua lyn jer.....
wt dergh jer ar.....
layannnnnnnnnn.........

he3:).....

0k la sume...
smpai d cni jer la citer gua utk ari nie.........
esk,lusa.tulat gua smbung agi........

k..
bye.....
ASSALAMMUALAIKUM..........

ta,ta...
ti,ti......
tu,tut.............!

wht sh0uld i d0.....?

Assalammualikum dunia.......
0k t0pik kte pd ari nie...ttg tabiat buruk gua....

dlu gua ade 1 diari nie...gua gne buku biase jer [60pg].....
gua gne buku cm2 spya 0rg len x sibuk nk bca diari 0rg len...mnyibuk jer,x sdr dri nk bca rahsiah 0wg len....b0d0h!...

s0ri agk ikut prasaan td....

0k,since gua tadika agi gua da ade diari sndri.....
gua bli buku tnpa pengetahuan mak gua........
evrytime mak check beg gua,mak x prasankn p0n buku diari gua 2.........
0wg tua ktakn.....
dlm buku 2,gua ctt sume ape yg brlaku pd ari2 yg gua tlh lalui.........
buku 2 agk bhya ckit ar...c0z dlm buku 2 ade rahsiah sume 0rg kt skeliling gua..
rahsiah kecik / besar,sume gua sumbat kt dlm buku.......

dr um0 gua 6thn smpai um0 gua 17thn gua hny brgntunug pd buku...
24h0urs,gua brkepit ngn buku diari gua...
gua slalu brsndrian,mse kt sk0la mhu p0n kt umah...
kt sk0la evn gua ade kwn gua x rpt,kt umah gua slalu trperuk kt dlm blik...
mak naik trtekan tgk klakuan gua.....
pgi,gua gi sk0la..balik tghri,mkn then msuk blik..
ps2 ptg,kemas2 umah then msuk blik agi...

stp bln gua sllu bli buku tulis bru...
pephm jer ar......da klu stp ari isi,stp mse isi....abih ar buku...
stp buku gua yg da abis gua simpn c0z ga ske bca blik sume yg gua da tulis stp ari.....

gua tulis psl prsaan gua,pndpt,mcm2 agi ar.........
n'.......
da trlalu slse ngn kehadiran buku 2,yg stp ari mnemani gua slme 11thn...
gua cba utk mlpsknnye dr idup gua.....gua bkr sume buku2 2 kt blkng umah gua kt shah alam.....
gua trlalu takut nk lpskn buku 2....
gua sdr cpt / lmbt,gua hrus lpskn bukuk 2 gk......lg p0n mse 2 gua tggl sbln agi nk priksa SPM...
n' gua sdr sdh msenye gua bljr idup brdikari....idup sndri......

akhirnye,4 1st time in my life....
n0 mre b00k 2 fill evryday,mmg gua mngaku 1st day gua agk trtekan gk ar...
tp,gua brjaya atasi sume ketakutan gua n did it...alam prkrjaan mngajar gua utk lpskn jer ape yg trbuku d ati...tau jer la keje lu 0rg msti cpt stress...

i can survive 0nly 4 1 years with0ut it......
n' n0w...i can h0ld myself any l0nger....
i need tht b00k again........then i create 1 b00k...
sme as b4...

Crying........

Assalammualaikum Dunia.......

gua nk citer ngn lu ape yg trjd kt gua ari nie.......
gua bngn kul 6:40am...lpk2,breakfst,ps2 mndi...kul 7:45am gua grk g GIAT..
gi GIAT,prhmpunan pgi..thn,bdaya bersih...ps2 gua msuk kls mcm besa....

msk kls,ade lak meeting psl picnic g ranau,utk dak K0mputer jer...
cikgu saridah lak xde meeting kt 0ffice ngn Pengurus...
gua da pening da dgr di0rg sume ckp ntah ape2 ntah.........
skit telinga dgr,skit mta tgk,skit ati rse.........
ps2 cikgu.saridah msk kls smbil bwk buku n0ta...
die bgtau gua Pengurus psn "lengkapkan buku n0ta"...
gua buat dergh jer ar......ps2 die c0mment psl unif0rm gua..i2 ar ini ar...
tp still gua lyn jer,evn gua xdpt nk jwb s0alan die.....

kul 9:50am,zakia dr kls Jahitan naik atas...
die ckp cikgu rahimah nk jmpe gua...gua p0n trun ar tp msh gua trpikir gk ar npe lak cikgu rahimah nk jmpe gua...tetiba lak 2..

cikgu rahimh 2 warden kt h0stel gua...

gua g jmpe cikgu kt prpstakaan mini dlm kls jahitan.......
cikgu ckp kt gua ade 0rg c0mplen psl gua n die xnk bgtau gua spe...
i2 gua x ksh...lntk ar..gua tau p0n nk wtpe kt die.....
org 2 ckp kt die yg gua ade "minum" mse GIAT........
klu mr0k0k 2 cikgu mmg tau ar...tp die kte kurng2kn kt cni...
klu brhnti agi bgus...tp gua da addict...
da 7 thn gua isap r0k0k...mmg ssh ar nk brhnti...
but still i'll try 2 st0p it...

so,gua p0n ckp ngn die...
mmg gua ade "minum" tp bkn mse GIAT...
mse 2 ari jumaat,rht kul 11am smpai 2pm...
gua g ade 1 pulau 2,0rg pggl pulau Gandang kt Tuaran...
gua xplen sume kt die,0k die ckp jgn wt agi....
gua p0n 0k jer........
n elakkan wt cm2 agi...die kte gua nie p0mpuan..
x el0k...mmg gua pns ar gk tp bkn slh die...
gua da pilih jln idup cmne gua nk lalui spnjng gua idup kt pentas ALLAH nie...


ps2 gua rht g blik h0stel nk mkn...
Erna & kk Jue ade kt sne..di0rg tny ar ape jd,npe cikgu pggl gua..
gua bgtau ar sbbnye...thn Erna lak "cuci" 0tak gua sebersih2nye & seb0leh2nye...
Erna mmg da lme tau sume psl kegiatan gua tp die diamkan dri jer...
die xnk ar mnyibuk psl 0rg len,walhal,die sndri p0n ade pr0b...
die r00mates yg baik...die ibrt kkk gua...kk Jue p0n sme...
1st gua 0k agi,ps2 die sbut 1 perkataan yg leh wt gua lmh,selmh2nye..
lmh yg amt sgt...prkataan "SAYANG".......
gua tau di0rg sume sygkn gua..tp gua xnk bebankn di0rg ngn mslh remeh mcm nie...
ble Erna ckp mcm 2,ati gua luluh,jatuh,brkecai cm agi...
gua nangis..gua mmg xleh dgr 0rg sbut perkataan 2 ngn gua..
gua cepat nangis...

airmata yg slme nie gua smbunyikn dr 0rg ramai akhirnye klh dek krn prkataan 2....

smpai 2 jer ar utk ari nie...esk lusa gua tmbh agi...
mse p0n da sntuk...gua nk blik...
0k guys...gua ch0w dlu...


bye...

assalammualaikum........

lawatan.........

hye sume..........

gua ade 1 brita best utk di k0ngsi brsme k0rg sume.....

pd 2 april 2009 brsmaan ari khamis,jam 8am....

gua ngn mmbrz kt PGMT akn gi lwtan esk............

gua xtau kit0rg akn mlawat knte 0r siape...

i2 gua x peduli.....yg pnting gua dpt jln2 ngn mmbrz gua.........



tpkn ade 1 jer pr0blm...............

dlm lwtn 2 sume 0rg kne pkai bju sukan...............

n' gua xde bju sukan..........

gua x byr duit bju 2 agi...........

nk ckp ngn cikgu ade pr0b ckit.........

gua x brani ar....

sbnrnye,gua nie ade mslh nk brhdpn ngn cikgu........
bkn ngn cikgu nie jer...but with all....
mmg dr dlu agi gua x msre alm ngn mne2 cikgu..........
c0z gua x ske brgaul ngn cikgu2 nie.....
ade sesetgh 2...gua cme ala2 kdr jer........


0k k0rg sume kt luar sne.....
gua ch0w dlu...nnt ape2 hal keep in t0uch 0k.....
bye....

chal0 bete...

ta,ta...ti,ti...tu,tut..........!

last nite...

last nite...we g0t a sh0cking news....
1 0f 0ur fren has passed away...
car accident in melaka...

s0,lets all 2gether we give him Al-Fatihah...
Bismillahhirr0mannirr0him...........

sm0ga r0h arwah dicucuri rahmat & di tmptkn di kalangn 0rg2 yg briman....
Amin...........

n0 st0ry ar br0....

Assalammualaikum sume....
n slm sejahtera....

msti k0rg sume heran kn psl gmbr yg ade kt sblh kiri nie....
menyib0k jer kn,kn,kn....
tp sum0 sbnrny0 eden nk kb0rkn kt teman sum0ny0...eden x tau nk lt0k gmb0r ap0 lg...eden men ambik j0l0h ap0 yg ad0...

eden ad0 cit0 nk hbq nie...apehal lak aq nie hish!...
aq sbnrnye bru jer abis cuti...
cuti blik kmpg...
kmpg aq kt Kg.Landung Ayang kudat sabah...
blik kmpg aq xde wtpe...
lepak jer...pgi,ptg,siang,mlm stp mse lepak jer....
da 0wg xde keje cmnie ler....aq nk stay kt umah p0n b0wink...
asyik kne bebel jer stp mse....aq da lah xde duit...elaun p0n lmbt agi nk kuar....
aq lepak ngn c0usin2 aq,mmbrs.......lepak smpai thg mlm k0l 1/2pm....
b0rak 2,b0rak nie....
tp yg plg aq x lupe t0pik hngt kit0rg adalah t0pik "m0del & ella"...
nie bkn psl m0del negara mne ker,ella ape ker....
tp sbnrnye..."m0del & ella" kmi bincangkn ialah...
"HANTU &PONTIANAK...HEHEHEHE!!!!!!..
seram citernye smpaikn aq tkut nk gi blik air nk buang air kecik...
tp yg plg parahnye,aq tkut nk blik umah.....!
aq nie jnis yg pnakut ckit..
blik citer td...
umah aq ngn c0usin aq 2 bknnye jauh p0n...
sebelah umah y0...
msti k0rg tgh gelakkn aq skg nie kn...
hehehehehehe :):):)..................
tp syukur alhamdulillah....akhirnye aq smpai umah dgn slmt & jayanye....
i2 sje lah utk ari nie...esk luse aq add agi citer bru...
s0,utk k0rg kt luar sne...
ade pesanan utk k0rg...
ingtlah klu k0rg jmpe HANTU ATAU POTIANAK kt luar sne tlg ek....
tlg brs0pan ckit...
jgn bru jer sesaat jmpe da lari lintang pukang,trpekik sne pekik cni..
rmbut d0k el0k2 cntek jer sikat ltk gel 1 karung guni jd serabai kalah mndiang bob marley...
0klah kite p0n da smpai di pghujung rncangn...
jd,Renung2 knlah & slmt brAmal sume...
Assalammualaikum & slm sejahtera.........
chal0 bete....ch0w sin chi guys....ta,ta..ti,ti..tu,tu!

'B0ut Me...[wht can i say...]

1st i wnt 2 intr0duce myself...
juz called angel...
im kind a c0ward pers0n...
s0,juz phm2 jer lah ye...
0key,..
lets start with my full pr0file...
im b0rn at h0spital bandar seri begawan...
0n 16 september 1990..
b0rn in simple family...
1st child frm 5 siblings...
2 gurlz & 3 b0ys...

1st day in..........

al0haaa...........
2day is my 1st in blogger....
actually i dun n0e wht am i d0ing n0w...
i d0 bc0z this is 0rder frm my teacher..
s0,thts it.........
:):):)

"Hell was full..so, im back..."

Simple story 'bout me...silent,depressed,tensi0n,lazyciast n many m0re....